我的英文見證~IN LOVE NO FEAR
Good morning, I am so grateful that I could share how God led me to know Him and to accept J.C. as my Lord.
I am Joyce, was born in a non-Christian family, I come from Taiwan, a small island in the pacific ocean, beside Mainland China, and we have only 4% Christian in 23 millions population.
Just as the most Taiwanese do, my parents worshiped many gods-idols, as we say. Each idol has their specific occupation. This idol is charge of your wealth prosperity, that one charge of your security, the other one grants you the wisdom to pass exam, the female one gives you fertility. Also, the Taiwanese worship the ancestors at their birthday or memorial day, with the expectation that they will bless their children, grandchildren, great-grand children. Dealing with the fortune-teller and the medium is quite common in our society.
We are so busy preparing many sorts of offerings with the fear toward these idols. Our mindset is: if we don’t worship our ancestors, that means we don’t show our respect to them, If we don’t follow this religious tradition, we might make these gods angry and it will lead us into a curse.
So, God to me is a supernatural being that I have to try hard to please, and it’s better to keep a distance from them because they are always so angry and will ask you offer more and more sacrifice.
Finally, I become tired of this kind of idoltary, and started to think: Does God really exist? If He exists, who is He? Or it is just a beautiful imagination that we can use to comfort our broken heart, or it is a wonderful assumption so we can contribute our unresolved problems in this world full of sufferings and unrightiousness? No one can answer me.
Also, I can’t stop asking myself these questions:
Where do I come from?
Where am I going to?
What is the meaning of my life and what is the purpose of my existence?
To find the answers, I choose the philosophy as my secondary major in university and spent lots of time reading all the classic philosophers. But just as the Bible says: too much study will wear you out. These great philosophers ‘s brilliant insights and wisdoms can’t make me satisfied, I still feel empty and am eager to get the eternal answer of my life.
“Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find, knock, and the door will be opened to you” God knows well those who are looking for Him, and He has prepared the way for us to know Him.
One co-worker in my company had a chance to share a bible story with us. The story of Joseph and his 11 brothers was so fantastic to me, so I asked him to share more bible stories, once a week, for the following weeks. He did, and gave each one of us a Bible to read. One day I asked him: How could I be sure that God exist? The answer of my co-worker is very simple: when we go to the restroom, we usually knock the door first. If there is already someone insides, he or she will answer you. I catch his point: If God really exist, He will answer me. So at that night, I bow down my knees in my room, and I prayed for the first time of my life: God, if you exist, show me.
Nothing happened immidiatelly, but after this brief prayer, I started to read the Bible, and tried to talk to this invisible God, and He did reply all my simple requests.
When I realized it’s God who answered me, I felt so flattered, I am as small as a dust, I am as ordinary as anybody, but an awesome God pays attention to me, listens to me carefully. It is wonderful, isn’t it?
But on the other side, if this God is a living God, a real God, He will know everything, including all the evil thoughts of my heart, all the sinful ideas of my mind. How would He treat me? Judge me? Send me to the hell? Somehow I was confused and scared too.
Several weeks later, I attended the Christmas activity in the church. I will never forget what the pastor said that night. Jesus, the son of God, was born one day, cold in the winter, dark in the manger. This king of the kings was born in a poor family. He had no sins, but was crucified for the sinners, at the cross, the most terrible punishment in the world. He didn’t need to receive this treatment, but he loves us and was willing to die for us. So that we can be purified by his sacrifice, we can be clean, without fault before God.
Could it be possible? A son of God is willing to die for me? I’ve never heard such good news before. So I answered to this calling: If you are the one who dies for me, I’ll choose you to be my God. That night, I opened my heart to accept J.C. as my Lord.
After then, I grew up step by step in the grace and the truth. Now I know It’s not me to choose J.C. as my Lord, but it’s J.C. to choose me to become a child of the Father, and He appoint me to go and bear much fruit, the kind of fruit that endures.
As a staff of Campus Crusade for Christ, I often share the four laws with the students in the campus. The third law talks about the redemption of J.C.” But God has shown us how much he loves us-It was while we were still sinners that Christ died for us.” The message of the gospel reminds me again and again: What a privilege we have in J.C., we are the new creations, in the family of the Holy Father, and enjoy his everlasting love without fear.
I’ll end my sharing by this passage: but You are the chosen race, the King’s priests, the holy nation, God’s own people, chosen to proclaim the wonderful acts of God, who called you out of darkness into his own marvelous light. May we praise and proclaim His name as long as we live till the day we see him in the glory.